so i like the idea of this blog thing. im blogging twice in one day, are you supposed to do that? theres no rules to blogging and i love that. you can type anything you want, anything your little heart desires and no ones going to be like hey! you cant say that. lolz. what AM i saying?
its vacation but i dont feel happy about it. i mean sure you dont have to worry about school, but strangely, i think i like school. i feel like it can take you places. people dont use school to the fullest that they can go. im trying to do that this year. ive fucked up every year before and i want to stop being that fuck up. i want to be the person that people say, "wow, shes really gone somewhere with her life." im scared that im not going to make it though. im trying so hard and im going to fall at any mom,ent. im going to do something wrong and im going to ruin everything. again.
you cant think that way though. thinking negatively only brings you negativity.
ive been trying to find some inspiration for sum art but nothing is helping. its making me irritated. i feel horrible if i dont do anything in art for a long period of time, like its a part of me and with out it id die. thats kinda dramatic but its the way i feel. people tell me im good, but i dont feel that way. i need to be better. thats all that i think. i need to master everything if i want to go any where. but thats not true. i ,love to learn new things and i cant learn enough. i want to know EVERYTHING. haha
this is yet another pointless blog.
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