Abnormalty

i feel passionate today. about everything. i want to climb a mountain and scream to the world how much i love it. i don't know what has caused my good mood. nothing that fantastic has happened today. just the same old stuff. but i still feel happy. is this normal? definitely not normal for me.

maybe ill paint today. I'm in a painting mood. maybe its the music I'm listening to. Eddie Vedder. he's amazing and his music puts a smile on my face. this mood of mine wont last forever so i might as well make the best of it and paint a beautiful picture. or maybe ill do some colored pencil work. i loved colored pencils. i love starting a new picture. but the end of a piece of art is the best. knowing that you created it. you thought of it. and it is yours. well, maybe not that. what am i trying to explain?

i do not know

i love art because it lets me express myself in a way that is unique. and i don't have to talk or explain it. i generally do not like to talk. weird right? i really wish that i was that talkative person but I'm not. talking to people is exhausting. its not because they are boring, but because its just the way i am. if people could express how they feel through paintings and drawings, i would fit right in. People don't do this, so i will inevitably never fit in. or maybe I'm just being stupid. this doesn't make sense does it?